In regards to feeling absolutely miserable since I got home for the summer:
I think the worst part of it is that I can’t even bring myself to practice anymore. Just a little over a month ago, music was my life. I was motivated and determined and I just have no drive anymore. I want to WANT to play so bad, but it’s like I don’t have any more music left inside of me. Even new music or things that used to always inspire me, don’t make me feel a thing. I find myself holding back tears at least once almost every single day for reasons that I’m not even sure of. I feel drained and hopeless all of the time. I just want to be me again. I miss my music and I miss myself.
Deniably Okay 